God knows how long it's gonna continue like this

Before doing MBA, life felt so beautiful (not that it's become ugly now), but the point it FELT so beautiful about the future prospects. I never knew what, it FELT nice. There was something to look forward. The word CRIB never existed in my dictionary (feels like i am talking about Nepolean, in whose dictionary IMPOSSIBLE never existed), what a pathetic dictionary i used to think it was. But nevertheless, things were some how much more pleasant and relaxed. The only thought was, by any how let me get into a B-School and life would be heaven like.
Alas, i guess i was wrong. The only comparison after engg., was with my collegues. Some of whom got into TCS, some into Wipro and so on. After MBA its not just the company name or the money that mattered, but anything and everything the other other guy has starts a new crib. Profile of the job, location of the job, superior's behaviour, travel or no-travel, laptop provided or not.. blah blah blah... You feel someone is lucky, someone feels you are lucky and the circle goes on. I fail to understand, why is it so. What has changed, is it ambitions. If it would have been ambitions then it should sound positive, right? But, why does it have a negative connotation then... what's wrong.. someone else feels you have all the happiness and everything.. everyone feels so, except you...
Is it the people who surround you make you think so, i guess the other person also thinks the same.. Why can't we be like our parents, accepting what we got and staying their for rest of our lives. Is it wrong? Why has this eternal unhappiness crept into almost everyone. Why does everyone feels suprior to the other, or makes the other feel inferior.. something is not write. Is it my fault, can i change others attitude, why do i start talking like them when im in their company, whom am i trying to prove myself to?? I guess these questions never get answered..
We talk the atmost pleasantness with everyone we absolutely detest and can't stand and take out our anger and frustration on people we love and care the most.. Isn't that hypocrisy. We read in self help books, live everyday as it comes by, make the most out of it, be happy as the time ones passed shall not return... i wonder if even the writter is able to follow his/her own philosophy. The fact is we are not alone, we live in a society. The only behaviour we can control is our own. You can't take out a baseball bat and crack everyone's skull who takes out his frustration on u, u just can't. So what do u do when the other person does that.. Do u maintain a smiling face and later crib about him to someone else... is that it!!! That's what we all do, do we.. but the question is, is that the right thing to do.. Then what.. i guess the only solution is give him bak the way he gives you.. the MBA degree atleast makes sure that you get a decent job post the current, so why be afraid and listen to people's shit..
Nothing has changed a bit, only the stakes have risen. The ego has gone up, things that never bothered has become our sole concern.. Work profile never bothered earlier, so why now.. Why the obsession to become the best, when all you need to be is a good person and be happy.
i have no idea what crap i am have written, but i guess i had to get it out.. that's the only way to have a good night's sleep.